The Times They are a Changing

Last night my little sister informed us all that she is moving in with her boyfriend. I have no idea when my sister go to the age to make choices like this, i feel like she is still to young, but she seems to think other wise. To me she will always be an annoying three year old on a bike.

Who am I to stop these choices from being made, she is an adult and has to make her mistakes. However, I want to shake her! She is 19 years old, no job, no money. Either her or her boyfriend are able to drive, this is a very poorly put together plan. And she just made plans to get a puppy tomorrow!! Are you kidding me.

This is just another thing that proves how different we are and I have to come to terms with it and her growing up. The choices she makes are NOT the choices I would make for myself. I want an education and to travel and to do things and be young without having to go home to someone. Again I have to come to terms with the fact that we are so different and want completely different things out of life.

I really don't know what to do. Any suggestion??

School of Hard Knocks

Life is hard...that is what I have been learning. I would rather not learn this lesson but everyone has to learn it sometime and I guess its my time.

I went home this weekend for my brother and sister in law's baby shower. My nephew is due in May and I cant be more excited.

Any how my dad came and got me Thursday since my car is broken. I enjoyed the time I got to spend with my dad. We don't usually spend a lot of time together because we are so different but I got to see a new side of my dad :)

Saturday was the baby shower...yeah that was interesting. I had never been to one before and I didn't like it! I know I'm probably just over reacting but I have never felt more unwanted in my entire life, and I was the fat kid in middle school! I felt that way again...the last one chosen at recess or in gym class. I'm 21 I thought that I was done with this.

My sister is being a bitch once again. Don't get me wrong I love my sister with my entire heart and soul but she is a bitch. I don't even know what she is doing...grow the eff up! Its none of your business. Have some respect, dude, seriously!

I feel so lost right now I don't know what to do. I don't know what I want, or if I did how I'm going to get it.

XXX OOO

American Girl