I haven’t written in a long long long time. But I’m here today to say some important
things that I think everyone should hear and understand but most importantly I
need to say them.
It’s been weighing on my heart since I begin
reading A Confident Heart by Renee Swope and doing the online bible study with
Proverbs 31 Ministries. Why do we find it necessary
to pretend our brokenness isn't there? Why
do we tell others, even our closest friends and family that we are ok. That it isn't there rising up preparing to
swallow us whole. That at the end of the
day all you want to do is sleep but the brokenness is right there on the edge
of your eyes threatening to break free.
Why do we feel guilty about being broken?? We have been raised in a
culture that says anything that is less than ok is unworthy.
Well I’m here to take a stand, to say I’m BROKEN. To say some days (most days, these days) my brokenness
wins. When I was left with nothing but my failures and brokenness and forced to
standing side by side with it I discovered parts of me that I didn’t know existed.
This journey has just started for me and I’m scared and excited and scared some
more but I know that at this end of this I will be a better person and a better
Christen women. I know that I deserve to
give this journey to myself. I’m excited
to see where He leads me and to find what our Lord has planned for me.
Nicely said, Cassie! I agree, it is sad that the pressure is on to always have everything be fine. It reminded me of this song by Matthew West:
ReplyDeleteMost my life I’ve been doing my best to
Try and hide anything less than perfect
I covered up all my scars
I gotta make them think I’ve got it together
Make believe nobody ever has to see
What I keep in the dark
Truth is, I was wrong
That’s the part that you have wanted all along
We are, we are, we are the broken
But we are, we are, we are the chosen
So come on shine, shine, shine
Your beautiful light
Through the cracks inside our hearts tonight
‘Cause we are, we are, we are the broken
Coast is clear we got nothing to hide
All are welcome here
Step into the light
Where there’s no more fear
Can you hear the freedom song our souls are singing
Come just as you are
Take those walls around you and tear ‘em all apart
We are the weak, the wrong, the too far gone
We are the outcasts, yeah, but today we belong
We are the lost, the found, the been knocked down
But we got back up and now we are the city on a hill
Is filled with stained glass hearts, but we come as we are
We come as we are
And we shine like stars, shine like stars
We come as we are and we shine like stars