Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas to you and yours :)

-All my love

Cassie

My room

My room is not me. I don't like that it doesn't represent who I am but I don't spend enough time at home to justify me spending money to make it me. I don't know what to do...maybe I will get an area rug. Hmmm something to think about

Hope everyone is ready for Christmas because I know that I'm not. I don't have a single present yet. I'm effed.

Lastly, I was listening to music last night and this song came on. I don't like that it represents what I'm feeling right now because of the artist but it does. Please don't judge me on this song.

Much love

--Cassie

Growth

I can't believe the semester is over already, it went by so fast.

I'm not sad that classes are over, this semester was a shit show. I'm sad that I wont see my girls for a month and that I only have one more semester with them. Only 15 more weeks to impact them in some way, to watch them grow. 4 months left for them to teach me, for them to show me the beauty in the world.

Coming off of last year I never thought that I would love a house as much as I do. There were the ups and downs yes but for the most part I felt it was up. I also feel like I could do a much better job of getting to know them and including them more.

Lady Antebellum - American Honey

I love when a song sums up how you feel...this song is it for me right now :)

Leaving

Well, Thanksgiving has come and gone and I have to go back to school. I don't want to but I have to. I hate leaving so much, its so hard. The last four months have really tested me emotionally, being home was what I needed. I finally got to sleep...like really sleep, I woke up every morning feeling rested. I haven't been done this since August, its amazing what taking the stress out of my life will do.

Two weeks and I will be home again :)

Subwayyyyyy

Subway can go suck a big fat one!!!!

Last night Sam and I decided to go get Subway before our meeting. We get there and I step up to order and told her that I wanted a chicken breast sub. The "lady" (she looked like a man) said, rather rudely, that they are out! So because she was a BITCHHHHHH to me I decided to be a rude to her...it makes sense :P

I get my sandwich and Sam and I leave. First I was so angry I couldn't find the outy thing in the parking lot, then I spit a little (thats right I was so angry I spit) but thats not all I almost hit like 6 people. In my defense they totally walked out in to the middle of the road.

We get back to my room and I take my sandwich out of the bag and it was triangle!!! Why the h was my subway sandwich a TRIANGLE you ask. Well its because when I opened the wrapper and picked up half of it the only part that was left inside the bun was ONE piece of salami!!!

I paid $5.30 for the chick to make me a sandwich not for me to have to remake it!!!! I'm mad...I'm going to write a letter!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

God of Wonders

This is one of my very favorite songs. It has always made me stop and praise the Lord no matter were I am. It still brings tears to my eyes.

Day

Today was good until 2pm. Then I had the longest class of my life and shit hit the fan.

I hate being sick

It doesn't happen to me very often and thats probably a good thing because I'm a baby! Stupid cold, stupid dorms stupid stupid stupid

On a plus tomorrow I'm going to Green Bay with Laura, Sam and Jaci :)

This weekend has been....

Weird

October??

Its October already!!! Where did September go, craziness.

Things are starting to calm down for me, homecoming is over!! That was the craziest week of my life. An event to get people to every day, classes and other RA things to get done. Its fun but A LOT of work. We did, however win the float competition! Our float was bad ass times ten:

They work hard for a week and half, they deserved the win!

Fall

I miss dirt roads and being able to drive fast down them. I miss fall at home so bad; apples, Friday night football, pretty trees, the smell, the sound. Growing up I couldn't wait to get out now all I do is want to go home. I will always be a small town girl and I'm more then ok with that.

What I miss most is beet harvest. Riding in the truck along side the harvester watching as the beets are pulled from the ground and dumped in to the truck. Every time I think about it I'm instantly an excited 10 year old little girl waking up early to spend the whole day with her daddy in the truck, much simpler times back then.

Holy Wow!!!

I got 8 hours of sleep for the first time in 30000 years :) It feels good! I woke up at 8 to study for my math test (which went was so so.) I ate breakfast for the 2nd day in a row!!!

I'm glad this week is almost over, its been crazy! With homecoming coming up I'm super swamped. Tomorrow I have SLFP retreat, it should be a good time :) Also I love coffee

Happiness

I look like crap and probably smell like it to since I haven't showered but today is a good day!!! I love days like this when no matter what I look like what people say I still happy and beautiful

Its raining and I love it. I know its kinda weird but rain makes me smile. I love the way it smells, and sounds and feels. I LOVE it :)

My girls are sweeeeet. They make me happy, just seeing how much they have grown in 2 weeks is amazing. They are slowly coming out of their shells, some faster then others, but I'm excited to get the year going and start doing things.

Venti caramel macchiato....need I say more? Its happiness in a cup.

Its a long weekend hellz yeah!! We have kickball on Monday which should be a ton-o-fun. I'm excited for that. I'm also going out on Saturday to celebrate Sam's 21st...should be a shit show :) Marquette doesn't even know whats about hit them.

Also last night it became official I caught Bieber Fever...it was an accident. But he is so cute I just want to pinch his cheeks. And have you see that boy dance!!!

Goal for the long weekend: Steal a friends kitchen and cook something new :)

A few words before class

1) Hot weather is stupid. This is the U.P. its supposed to be COLD! I want it to be fall so freaking bad. And to top it all off I don't have anytime to go to the beach! I live 2 blocks from the coldest water on earth and I cant go play in it when its 10000 degrees out :(

2) Another person drowned this weekend. This brings the total to 6 this summer alone. WOW so incredibly sad. Apparently he was a freshmen. Can you even imagine brining your child up to start a new chapter in his life and getting a call a week later saying he died. Please please be careful when in the lake. Do not try and "beat" Lake Superior you will lose. :( I pray for this boys family and friends.

3) I hate meetings but for some reason choose a job with nothing but meetings. Oh well I love my job.

Its that time a year again...

So move in weekend has come and almost gone. I can't believe it, it seems like just yesterday that I was checking people out and packing all my stuff in my moms baby car.

I have met 99.999% of my girls and they all seem amazing. Its going to be a great year...i can feel it. I hope everyone is going to get along and be happy :P I'm Cassie I just want everyone to happy.

I have always be quick to think my life is poop, I feel most people do. Its always in the little moments that I realize how blessed I am. Last night after Late Night we were riding around with the top down singing at the top of our lungs. It was perfect, great night, great friends, great music. In that moment I couldn't help but think the Lord. I love my fiends and family so much :)

P/H Scavenger Hunt

I just got back from a Payne/Halverson Scavenger Hunt across Marquette!!! It was crazy, it started with dinner and the RDs taking our phones...ahhh. Then we were driven to Lower Harbor and left there, no car, no phones just the Payne/Halverson RAs. It was a little rocky at first then it settled down. The only problem was it was sooo hot and sweaty and nasty. Any how it ended on the Halverson roof. It was a lot of fun. :) Got to know people better.

However I lost my last $20 along the way. And once again realized boys are stupid. LAME LAME LAME


Good Night

Long Time No See

Hey hey,

I haven't posted anything in a while and figured I should since there is a lot going on right now.

I have moved back to Marquette. RA training started on Monday, so far so good. This year is going to be amazing. Staff is getting along great everyone is chill and easy going. LOVE IT!!! Can't wait for everyone else to get back and to catch up with errbody :)

The first couple of days were rough, but they always are when I move back. Spending so much time with my family this summer then having to leave, it wasn't easy. I love my family so much. I don't think that I will ever not cry when I leave. Something that I'm ok with. When I'm in Marquette I want to be home and when I'm at home I want to be in Marquette...they should just be closer

Well I have a bunch of stuff to get done...post again soon :D

MQT

Marquette in 10 days....so excited :D

That is all K.Bye

Cooking, cooking, cooking and a little baking

I have been cooking up a storm lately. I found some amazing recipes and HAD to try them one was gncchi and the other was for perogies:


The perogies were super easy to make, time consuming but easy. Here is the dough




And here is the filling potatoes, onions and of course CHEESE!



This is some of the ones we made. I swear we made 10000...ok not that much but there were a lot, there is still some in the freezer : )



NUMMY IN MY TUMMY : )




I love to cook I don't know why I don't do it more.

One Year

Michael Jackson may have made questionable decisions in his life but we can not deny the fact that he was an amazing artist. His music inspires and transforms! This is my favorite MJ song!

Cuddle Time!

CUTE :P

Lipoma Lipoma Lipoma

A couple of days ago I noticed a large lump thing on my stomach. Last night I noticed it was growing, so I decided to go to the hospital...you know its bad when I go to the DRs...I hate them!

My sister goes with me to the ER. The registration lady was a BITCH, almost punched her in the face. Anyhow, after I get registered and the nurse comes in and does nurse things we wait 20 minutes for the DR (the ER was empty...stupid DR.) So the Dr walks in and feels the lump on my side and says that its a lipoma,(a tumor made of fat cells). That its not a big deal and told me to see a surgeon, washed his hands and left! The nurse comes back and gives me a name of a surgeon and tells me I can go. I don't have insurance so I just paid $800 to see a doctor for 20 seconds. I found out more on webMD then from the guy I have to pay! Eff that!

Anyhow I have decided to name my tumor...do you all have any suggestion??

Its good to be me : )

The last week has been amazing!!! Last weekend a couple of friends and I met in South Haven...SO SO SO SO SO MUCH FUN. We had a few drinks, played in the rain/lake and hung out. I had so much fun : )

I have spent the last two days at Zack, Ashley and Owen's house. Owen is so cute every thing he does makes me smile. Words don't cover how much I love him. Coming home this summer was the right thing for me, I might be broke for a very long time but this summer and the time I have spent with little dude could never be replaced.

Today was his first life lesson with Aunt Cassie. I taught him that everyone is created equal. I am also teaching him to appreciate good music aka 90s music! Next on the list is The Mighty Ducks...eff yeah!!!!!!!!!!! Man is he lucky to have me :P

I'm Cool

I have done nothing yet this summer. Wait no I have watched both season of October Road and all four seasons of Wildfire! I am also up to date with all news happening in Huron County as well as the Tri-Cities...eff yeah! I have also learned that babies can projectile! I have never seen puke fly so far...kinda of amazing (TMI??...TMI!)

Because I have nothing better to do I will break it down for you:

October Road- Should have gotten another season...or at least another episode! I just wasn't satisfied with how it ended. Eddie and Janet's relationship just ended and I was sad...Nick and Hannah (aka Jack and Dona) belong together. And the Commander has cancer...WTF. GIVE ME MORE (Thats what she said)

Wildfire- I have always loved this show and was happy when I found it on Hulu! Oh how I love hulu! In the last episode when Kris put Jrs ring on I cried, I just loved it :)

News from the thumb- Our Sheriffs department is stupid...please put the kids of this county at more of a risk, because alcohol and drugs aren't enough lets release pedophiles early! Yeah ok DOUCHE BAGS! A diver drowned in Harbor Beach the other day! Prays and thoughts go out to his family and friends. Flint is opening one of their closed factors, they are going to be making trucks YAY for jobs! Saginaw's road construction is almost done

I want even start on the oil spill because it makes me SO angry! FIX IT!

Ok I'm done know. BYE :)

Sleep

I just want to sleep like a normal person but nooo my body hates me! Its 6:31 am and I'm not tired. What is wrong with me.

On the bright side I got see the sun rise and hear the birds wake up.

Family

I love my family but sometimes they expect way to much from me. They expect me to come in and save the day, like superwomen. But I'm not super women and I don't want to be. I cant fix everything nor do I want to. I am one 21 year old girl not a freaking family therapist!!! I'm supposed to come in with my magic wand and poof make everything better. Dudes come on! I have my own problems and issues to deal with I can't keep doing this. Its not fair to me and I know it but how can I tell my family no...its such a hard thing to do.

Here I stand on roots that deep

We laugh we cry we hurt we bleed

We're best of friends and worst enemies

We're all to blame, were all the same, make no apologies

This is my family

xoxoxo

Puddles

It has rained for the last 2 days here when it finally stopped I went to check the mail and PLAYED IN MUD PUDDLES :) It was I love puddles they were really cold, lake superior cold, it was amazing. I want it to be warm outside so I can go to the beach and play outside this weather is LAME LAME LAME.

I'm making cookies tonight with my mommy probably having a drink! I think its funny that baking and drinking are synonymous..whatever :)

Hope everyone has a good weekend

xoxox

Owen

May 7, 2010 Owen Robert Hasting came into the world after taking his sweet time. My nephew is the cutest baby in the history of all babies :P He is such an easy going baby hardly ever cries...he eats like crazy!

Thursday afternoon my mom and I made our way to Saginaw thinking that we would soon have a new baby to hold...boy we were so so wrong. After waiting until 4 am we decided to go home and try and get some sleep. After getting about 3 hours of sleep my brother calls and says he is on his way...so once again we jump in the car. On the way to back he was born...7lbs 5oz 21 inches of pure perfection and love :)

HOME HOME HOME HOME

Finals and check outs are over so summer is here! I'm back home for the summa!!! It feels so good being home, even with all the family drama. Driving in to town last night I almost cried (I know I'm cool) but it feels good! Knowing that for the next three months I can pretend that nothing matters that I'm not a 21 year old women but a 16 year old girl. That if anything bad does happen my mommy is just down stairs not 400 miles away. It so nice not to have to deal with homework, studying, paper work, this meeting or that meeting, or a resident that needs something!

Every time I drive back in to town, past the farms and the wind mils, coming down the hill seeing the entire town stretched before me I can just feel things slow down; it really is the best feeling in the world.

Music is life

I love songs that come into your life at exactly the right time! When I hear a song and it gets me, truly understands who I am and how I feel at that exact moment, there is nothing better! I just found this song today

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BAF9zZzMOMc

Afternoon Drinking

Today 2 of my friends and I decided to celebrate the end of the semester by going out for a drink in between classes. Our second class got out early so we went back to the bar. Going to the bar in the middle of the day is a new one for me and I did it twice in one day!

I felt wrong and i LIKED it! This is by far the most irresponsible thing I have done. After this semester of being the responsible one 24 hours a day, worrying about this or that, finishing paper work, I deserve to be irresponsible. Plus the bartender was HOT! :)

Testing boundaries

xoxoxo

American Girl

The next thing

I have a huge list of things I want to do with my life, about 100. I don't call them goals because I only have one goal in life: To be happy, whatever that is at that point in time. I just want to be happy. I have recently completed one of the things on my list: learn to skate, I don't know how to stop but I can skate damn it! And for me that is a huge accomplishment considering that I fall over while standing still. Since I have completed this I needed a new goal I have decided that the next thing will be.........

LEARN TO FLY FISH

I'm excited for this new thing in my life and can't wait to get started!

XXX OOOO

American Girl

Well Rounded Person

I think that its important to be as well rounded as possible. My resent adventure in this has been to watch more sports. I have watched the Tigers 1 1/2 times, my brother would be so proud of me. I have also watched the Red Wings, which I'm currently doing. I have even watched ESPN...for like an hour, if thats not dedication I don't know what is. So far it has been good. I have learned about different sports and feel that I could talk about them without looking like a total idiot.

GO WINGS!

XXX OOO

American Girl

School of Hard Knocks

Life is hard...that is what I have been learning. I would rather not learn this lesson but everyone has to learn it sometime and I guess its my time.

I went home this weekend for my brother and sister in law's baby shower. My nephew is due in May and I cant be more excited.

Any how my dad came and got me Thursday since my car is broken. I enjoyed the time I got to spend with my dad. We don't usually spend a lot of time together because we are so different but I got to see a new side of my dad :)

Saturday was the baby shower...yeah that was interesting. I had never been to one before and I didn't like it! I know I'm probably just over reacting but I have never felt more unwanted in my entire life, and I was the fat kid in middle school! I felt that way again...the last one chosen at recess or in gym class. I'm 21 I thought that I was done with this.

My sister is being a bitch once again. Don't get me wrong I love my sister with my entire heart and soul but she is a bitch. I don't even know what she is doing...grow the eff up! Its none of your business. Have some respect, dude, seriously!

I feel so lost right now I don't know what to do. I don't know what I want, or if I did how I'm going to get it.

XXX OOO

American Girl

Happy Birthday to meee!!!

Its my birthday...but not just any birthday its my 21st birthday!!!!!

After waiting basically my entire life for this day it seems weird. I don't feel like I should be 21. I hoped that I would have been a lot further in life by now. I don't know were, just further.

XXX OOO

American Girl

I just want a plan!

Hey hey,

So here I am once again...struggling with the future. I have no idea what I want to do with my life. I know that I want to help others in some way. I want to leave this world a little better then when I came into it.

I don't know what I should major in...again! I look around me and it seems like everyone has a plan, they all know what they want out of life. Sometimes I feel like I'm coasting through life, something I do not want to do. When I die I want to look back and have no regrets and know that I did everything to enjoy life. There are so many things out there. I just want a plan!

XOXO

American Girl

PS My 21st is 3 days away : )

Favorite Song

Trisha Yearwood American Girl : )

Phone rings, baby cries
TV, diet, guru, lies
Good morning hunnie

Go to work, make up
try to keep the balance up
Between love and money

She used to tie her hair up in ribbons and bows
Sign her letters with X's and O's
Got a picture of her mama in heels and pearls
She's tryin to make it in her daddy's world
An American girl
An American girl

Slow dance, second chance
mama needs romance
And an live-in maid

Fix the sink, mow the yard,
Really isn't all that hard
If you get paid

She used to tie her hair up in ribbons and bows
Sign her letters with X's and O's
Got a picture of her mama in heels and pearls
She's tryin to make it in her daddy's world
An American girl
An American girl

Well she's got her God
and she's got good wine
Aretha Franklin and Patsy Cline

She used to tie her hair up in ribbons and bows
Sign her letters with X's and O's
Got a picture of her mama in heels and pearls
She's gonna make it in her daddy's world
An American girl
An American girl
She's an American girl

She used to tie her hair up in ribbons and bows
Sign her letters with X's and O's
Got a picture of her mama in heels and pearls
Shes gonna make it in her daddy's world
Shes an american girl yeah

Well she tied her hair up in ribbons and bows
Sign her letters with X's and O's
X's and O's, X's and O's

XXX OOO

American Girl

The Basics

Hello Blogging World!!!

I don't really expect people to read my blog...and thats ok with me. I just want an outlet to be totally honest with my self and the world about everything.

I love life I love living I love meeting new people and doing new things. I have a hard time making decisions and find myself second guessing myself a lot. I'm a horrible speller. I'm a hopeless romantic that doesn't believe in love (we will safe that explanation for later). All I want to do with my life is help others but it doesn't seem like I can with out a degree so here I am stuck in school. I'm the worlds biggest procrastinator. I like to dress up and look pretty. I love driving

I have never had a relationship or been kissed, I'm 21 years old...its weird I know. I'm not a fan of mean people. I don't like yelling, but I'm a loud person. I would eat a hamburger or hot dog of the grill then a stake any day. I hate my body. I also don't like waking up....

This is just about everything you need to know about me for now, the basics at least.

XXX OOO

American Girl